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Sunday, July 22nd, 2007
3:55 am
urgh fuck yes im still alive

will update soonish

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Thursday, September 14th, 2006
1:30 pm
urgh i havent updated in like yeaaaaaaaaaaaars! lol

mh lets see whats new?

i went to london with my friend sandra two weeks ago, we went there to see rocco deluca and the burden, met them all, talked to them and the concert was amazing...

im going to london again on december 9th but just for a night to see from first to last live (and lost prophets since theyre headliner) other than that...my cat emma died, my cat sonny ran away (but he's living on the farm now sooo yea he's alright and well and happy) then we brought 9 cats to different owners so i got six cats left and my dogs chica and snoopy BUT snoopy is gonna get new owners (unfortunately, i love him, blind alsation) in few days sooo im very sad about that :[

mh what else? thats it actually, im in a school for a week and the ppl here are uppercool! im turning 24 (yes im old) in two months, maybe seeing panic at the disco again in october (depending if im still fighting then with my best mate) aaand yea...

ah fuck it, thats it :]

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Sunday, July 16th, 2006
7:16 pm
mh didnt update for a while... lets see.

i still love my job.

my cat leika was missing for three weeks, it was horrible but i got her back... well not only her but 15 other cats so now ive got like 18 cats, 1 dog and a rabbit at home, mpf.

im going to london next month...

im going to see panic at the disco again in october.

well i was soooooooooooooooo disappointed when brasil lost against france... i was walking around during the worldcup like a freak: brasil hat, brasil flag, brasil shirt, trousers, socks, scarf and bag... but it didnt help tho, they lost and had to go home *sigh* damn the french, i couldnt stand zidane, and now i really hate him but haha for the way his carreer ended...

I'm almost every night at my friends sandra and we watch queer as folk, i bought all seasons on dvd... love it.

well yea my life is boring, thats pretty much it but im feeling better than last year, no depressions just me being happy :)

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Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
8:32 pm
aaaaaaaaaaaaand finally the last one:

derek and me:

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Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
8:16 pm

so dan cancelled his trip to london in july (which i couldnt afford anyway) BECAUSE: He's gonna be in GERMANY in december. plus he's gonna be near frankfurt which means this is only like 50 minutes away from me and he told me if I'm nice enough (which i'M not lol) he's gonna visit me too.

god i'm still in my derek/sonny/matt/travis in münster/munich-dream... that was so amazing, i cant believe that it really happened...

i thought id post some pics:
me, anya and sonny:
(actually I'm taller than sonny, dunno why he's so tall there? lol)

me and travis:
(kinda the hottest guy on earth. ERM)

me and matt:
(i was so impressed when he just hugged me without me asking for it and how nice and sweet he was... i didnt really like him before. now i do ALOT)

and ill get the one with me and derek soon, i guess tomorrow, hopefully.

there is another picture... I'm right under sonny lol

and me on the left side next to the guy with the sunglasses:

alllllllllll the time i was wrong. germany IS cool.

brazil soccer game tonight!!! i cant wait, they have to win, please please please!

current mood: happy

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Friday, June 9th, 2006
8:08 pm
okay, so i got back from both from first to last concerts... and i gotta say: I'm the luckiest girl on earth... okay this is gonna be a long one but nevermind:

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it was so fucking amazing... my train to münster left at 6am and i was 11 hours in 4 different trains and then i arrived. i met a girl at the trainstation... she was like "show's been cancelled, atreyu arent playing" and i was like "WTF? what about from first to last?"

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they were incredible on stage... sonnys voice is amazing, wes borland is a great bass player, they all have so much energy on stage and wow... best live band ive ever seen... plus they are so fucking incredibly nice and take time for their fans... i think im most impressed of derek since we had two really great chats.

Thanks FFTL for the two best days of my life.

current mood: happy

(1 You Bitch! | Note To Self)

Monday, May 22nd, 2006
10:37 pm
hm... new with me?

i love my job still, im supposed to work there for 30 hours a week. im working like 50 hours a week. plus i dont get paid.

i got another cat (sammy) and a rabbit (kinney), so i got 3 cats, a dog and a rabbit now.

I'm seeing From First To Last live twice in like 2 weeks.

I turned into an asshole who doesnt care about her friends anymore (few exeptions tho). I dont need them.

I'm all into "queer as folk" right now... and I hated hated HATED the end, made me cry for three days and still does =/ plus I love Gale Harold and Randy Harrison.

Babylon (club) is so awesome... I wish I could go there one day (it's in LA)

Sandra went to hospital because of her foot, I visited her and now she's home again, gonna see her tomorrow.

well nobody's gonna read that fucking shit anyway so what the hell am I writing here?


current mood: good

(4 You Bitch! s | Note To Self)

Saturday, May 6th, 2006
9:01 am
right so the panic at the disco concert was FUCKING AWESOME! we got there at 7 and got in the front row and the club was really small... and yea I cant say much except they were really really fucking awesome, brendons voice live is brilliant, he did a cover of the song "slow motion" by third eye blind and ... yea it was beautiful. we took a shitload of pics and i filmed some parts... im gonna put them up soon. at the end we had to wait 5 hours for the train (we went to the trainstation at 10pm and the train was leaving at 3:30am) and i talked to manu and we had a damn great chat... i love my mate.

well other than that, today exactly in one month (6.th of june and 7th of june) I'm gonna see from first to last live


aiden are coming to frankfurt in october and manu is going with me... HA so I dont mind that i missed them at download festival... I wish my chem would play here this year... that would be the best year ever then... panic at the disco, from first to last twice, aiden... and if they'd come, my chemical romance...

well i wouldnt mind if the used were coming to play too but... I'm fucking happy bout fftl and aiden =)

now I'm going to work...

I kinda fancy one guy who's working with me... he's 27 and his name is alex, it's weird coz i usually fancy younger guys and... alex is blonde again... but ah well, we got to talk a bit, he's so cute...

I'm tired...didnt get much sleep coz of the concert but we have a party today so I cant get much sleep... ah well i gtg now =)

current mood: happy

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Thursday, April 27th, 2006
11:42 pm
What would you say?
If this blemished face,
This blemished face
With a crooked nose
Had a chance to say
Whatever he wanted,
From his blemished world
Of the unknown?

And would you give a fuck
If all that you heard
Were nouns and verbs
Like shallow heartache?

The sound, of victory,
Blowing up your world, world

Fake faces everywhere I see
Fake people looking back at me
Sit down, don't tell me,
Don't tell me where I don't belong
Fake faces everywhere I see
Fake people looking back at me
Sit down, don't tell me
Don't tell me where I don't belong

Oh, I heard a sick, sad voice
Oh It was honesty, I turned to her and said
We need to be medicated
Oh, and you're the prescription
For a forced out vision
If you're with me
We'll send the critics to hell
With the sounds of our voices

All you better-thans that fed us shit,
You'll be knocked on the floor
So don't you place your bets just yet
All you treasure sleepers feed on shit,
You'll be knocked on the floor
So don't you place...

<33333333333 and its not even my favourite song but <33

current mood: exhausted

(Note To Self)

1:38 am
dear diary,

today at work i fed a lama with sprouts. it's name was boris.

the end.

what a weird day.

weirdest thing is: i dreamed that i got a heart-tattoo on my veins... i went online tonight, saw that alicia simmons (the prettiest girl on earth, and fiance of mikey way) and mikey way got a heart-tattoo on their veins... that is WEIRD! mine didnt say "forever" like the hearttattoos of the two tho, mine said demolition lovers :S and from first to last... I'm a lost case as it seems... no hope lol... no come on, it's weird really isnt it?

plans-change: cancelled download festival because from first to last are playing twice in germany, so im selling my ticket for download festival and go to both concerts... theyre supportband of atreyu. I CANT WAIT! the clubs they play in are smaller than the download festival and since nobody really knows fftl here there's a real chance to meet them. maybe im not one of the 2 last existing fftl fans who didnt meet sonny yet, since like 239842394723948273498723497 ppl already met him. i wanna meet travis tho, or all, but travis most, anyway im happy just when i see them playing live!

my job is really exhausting, I'm hardly online anymore but yea I'm really good at the moment. panic! at the disco next thursday.

got my somerset album today finally.

i lost weight in the last 2 months, kinda like 10kgs. I'm so tired... I'm going to bed

cant wait for my coffee tomorrow morning, I'm addicted to it now.

current mood: happy

(Note To Self)

Monday, April 24th, 2006
5:18 am
Fuck...Dan...is gonna be in London... in July.

You know where youre gonna find me this time.

in London.


current mood: shocked

(Note To Self)

Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
5:58 am
oh god...

some people changed so much, it sucks. I got along with them so brilliant and now? not at all anymore... why do all the ppl suddenly think they are the best/most beautiful people in the world? why do ppl always try to be better than you? why do ppl try to annoy you on purpose? "oh look that's better, you'd die for that"... "you know I'm cooler than you". shit like that... even as a joke, i mean: HELLO!!! fucking wake up. even if you are better than me (is it even possible that a person is "better" than another one?) i DONT care!

I'm glad to be the person I am and i dont want to be you, dont want to live where you live, dont want to have your family and i fucking dont want to make myself feel better by pushing down others... that's so poor, seriously. wake up...

plus i hate if i cant rely on ppl, if you promise something, fucking keep your promise. if you tell somebody to do something, then fucking do it. "oh i forgot, oh i forgot" I cant hear it anymore. At least there are some people out there I can rely on and my friends know they can rely on me.

holy potatoe.. anyway... my day was okay-ish, went to my new "job" and it's great, with animals again, i have to take care of them, but not only dogs this time, it's also horses and stuff, it was gorgeous.

There is a nice song lyric: "all you better-thans that fed us shit will be knocked on the floor, so dont you place your bet just yet! all you treasure sleepers feed on shit, will be knocked on the floor, so dont you bet!" ... seriously heroine is the best cd i ever bought... boy i'm annoyed...

yea sorry for ranting, I'm done now...

Going to see panic at the disco next week yay :D

Dan is randomly talking to me again... I missed these convos...

current mood: pissed off

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Friday, April 21st, 2006
9:01 pm
I saw jonathan rhys meyers earlier... o.O

well at least a guy who looked exactly like him... i was in this supermarket and when i saw him i stopped doing what i was doing and just stared...

this was weird o.O

oh except that my life is pretty shitty at the moment. nothing but problems but yea... fuck it, several ppl want to stop me from seeing panic at the disco and from first to last in june but MUAAHA nobody's able to stop me seeing the band of my life. excuse me I'm gonna go eat!


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Friday, April 7th, 2006
10:17 am

appearently I'm back in UK in like... 60 days lol.

From First To Last are playing at the download festival and I'm so going. I have no money for that but I'm so going, already ordered the ticket and booked the flight.

FFTL live. I can't believe I'm gonna see the... that is like iiiiiiiiiiincredible!

then also playing Aiden! one of my other favourite bands wohooo... and I'm seeing becs coz she's going wit me...

then Panic! at the disco in like a month. woot

then... Funeral For A Friend and Bullet For My Valentine...also playing at download.

I wish MCR would announce that they play there coz they are playing at give it a name and reading. but i guess they wont =/ buuuuuuuuuuuuuut I dont care for anything as long as i see trav, sonny, matt and derek live aka FFTL woho :D

current mood: happy

(Note To Self)

Saturday, April 1st, 2006
1:58 pm
sonny moore's my boyfriend... sorry ric =/ ...jk haha :< (unfortunately *cough*)

well I got finally aesthetic today wooo :>

feck im at my grans and there is such a stupid kid here... a girl... I HATE HER... she's like 7 and the most annoying kid i EVER met... she's burping around here (which is actually even funny) and goes every two seconds "GRAAAAAAAAAAAAANDMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA"


current mood: giggly

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Thursday, March 30th, 2006
3:05 pm

and I'm in germany


becs!!! HELP!

other than that: was talking to my bf on the phone for like 3 hours yesterday night, we laughed so much that i cried... i love the sound of his laughter ♥ lol

aaaaaaand... my stalker left me alone, finally lol. im working on my fftl homepage, still... i cant wait for my internet to work at home :{

current mood: nervous

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Monday, March 27th, 2006
7:00 pm - ...and we all have a hell
...every day gets worse, locked in a vice my thoughts perverse...you must wonder why i look at you that way...tonight I'll make my way into your house, I must; im lusting for your body...skin looks tight, I think I just might have to take a bite, but i know one will turn...to three or four or more my little whore.

...I did a beautiful thing, relax baby, that's a good girl...you're like my work of art, I can control, I can contort any position that I wish, I make my fantasy reality...hold still, it will be over soon.


yesterday i had so much fun talking to my bf on the phone, we laughed so hard... haha ric <3

current mood: good

(Note To Self)

Sunday, March 26th, 2006
8:11 pm
great, so im two days in germany now, met a guy yesterday and now he is stalking me... ended up in my flat and i didnt get rid of him til 7am this morning... he freaks me out really... riiiiiiiic where are you? :[

(Note To Self)

Friday, March 24th, 2006
10:14 am
goodbye uk... and goodbye to the ppl i love there... im on my way back to germany

if you dont have heroine already, fuckin get it!

(Note To Self)

Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006
1:20 pm
oh boy some ppl just have no bloody clue about particular things but talk as if they would know EVERYTHING...you seriously suck.

anyway i chose lately to live from coffee... my body is now physically and mentally addicted to it.

my next few months are gonna rock, seriously! it's like:

24.03.06 - getting home to germany (which actually sucks BUT) I'm getting my dog back, wohoo (and my two the used albums, the somerset album, the aesthetic album which i ordered are waiting already there)
25.03.06 - going out with my brother and his friends, partying
26.03.06 - grans birthday, cant wait to see her again
27.03.06 - going out with my friend sandra, having shitload of fun
02.04.06 - manu is coming (visiting :p haha)
03.04.06 - manu still with me
04.04.06 - manu still with me
08.04.06 - manu invited me for cinema, ice age 2 in ffm because otto waalkes will be there and do a show, manu surprised me and bought tickets coz he knows how much i love otto, manu's the BEST <3 after cinema: emo-club (they even play fftl wooho) and sleeping at his house
rest of the month: spending time with sandra alot!
04.05.06 - panic! at the disco concert with all my friends (sandra, manu, ady, steve, anne), after that I'm visiting my exbf in duisburg, it's his bday
05.05.06 - still with my exbf torben
06.05.06 - still with my exbf torben
11.05.06 - cinema with manu / silent hill
end of may: my bf is visiting me for a few weeks yay :D
11.06.06 - first brazil game, world championship, fuck yes!!!
july: becs is coming over from england for few weeks... and my bf is coming over for few weeks again <3

HA yea! that's so gonna rule... can't wait <333

current mood: happy

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